Yeah. So. Um…I truly and wholeheartedly think The Dude is full of it. Some times I want to think he’s not the person he is turning into but I have my doubts.
I can dig his whole family thing but I don’t get the part where the baby forces him out the door. He tells me I will be there if you do not have but if you do I am 99.9 percent not going to be there. Seriously, dude. He has gotten a shock and is running scared a baby or no baby he’s gone. Therefore, I am making a decision to be pregnant and alone (this is heavy, literally).
I think he does NOT want to mess up his frequent flier single guy thing. He’s really just a major slut when I think about things. His M.O. is to keep women that are educated, career focused, and cute on deck. No women really wows him so he moves around. Him spending time with me was just that his time with me. In actuality, I should of had some other “players” on my team.
Him wanting a family may be true but he is an emotional mess. The baby will not under any uncertain terms change him. The Dude will continue to do him (meaning not change until he sees fit). I think children can grow up in loving environments without two parents as long as both parent are responsible. At the root of things, I think he’s confused.
I also think that I have been played. He was in control of everything up until this point. Me choosing to have a baby he can’t control (unless…let’s not think like that). The only logical thing I can think is that he thought I would get an abortion but you cannot make reckless decisions thinking you can fix them in the morning. An abortion is not birth control (at least not to me).
Him walking out is his way of controlling the situation. Under the line of thinking that she will reconsider. He feels like he is being forced to be a dad again, and I feel like I am being forced to get an abortion. I could see if we compromised but we are polar opposites on this issue.
It’s week 6. I feel like crap. And he is acting like a douche.