Practical Decision Making

The moment I realized that I had gone through with the “procedure” I started having baby thoughts. It is like when your a teenager and searching for security and love from your peers. As teenagers, we go through the whole wanting acceptance. I am having an inner fight with myself about accepting me and my various components. The hardest part is accepting that I let some douche bag come into my life and control the decisions that I made. Furthermore, I made a life altering choice and now I am wondering how have I altered my future.

So we go through life making decisions where the outcomes can be predicted. For instance, I went to college there are about three possible outcomes: 1) finishing college, 2) dropping out of college, and 3) becoming a professional student.  This was a very predictable and sound decision (really, who opposes going to college?).  But when you think your making a moral decision mixed with a judgment call it messes things up.

I think getting an abortion is a very practical decision because you know the outcome will be a termination of pregnancy.  But I also think if you can rationalize the behavior that lead up to the pregnancy then you can make practical decision the follow through with the consequences. What’s a practical decision? A practical decision is when the outcomes are predictable. In my experiences, practical decision making is followed by a series of irrational behavior. Prime example, my abortion. Prior to the abortion I was creating a recipe for pregnancy only it was guided by irrational behavior. One, I was having unprotected sex with someone that did not want kids. Two, I was a repeat offender of making “emotional” decisions. Three, there was no cut off point for my destructive behavior. So the amalgam of irrational behavior, fertility, and unprotected sex left me with trying to make a rational decision contradictory to my beliefs. Interesting.

Reality Check! Making practical decision in hindsight of irrational behavior is nothing more than trying to rationalize irrational behavior.